apoint,pivot,axis, around which anything rotates or revolves
thesourceofaninfluence,action, the force
Ever been sick? Loaded question as there are various forms of sickness. The kind of sickness where it wipes you clean of physical and psychological energies. When you are deep in it, it can feel surreal. As hours and days pass in a fog of time. Time which both comes to a stand still and continues to move too quickly. My Moment of Knowing #1.
That moment of being present, as my body and mind began to show me the signs that something wasn’t quite right. If you are connected to yourself authentically, you know this feeling. For me, first came the lethargy, then the lack of mental clarity, and finally the loss of taste for everything. My Moment of Knowing #2.
Quiet moments with myself wondering when will all be well again? Whatever well is. Then, whether induced by the uneasiness of quickening pulse, the distress of what to do with feelings on the rise, or the haziness from the tactics to avoid it all, the consideration of surrender entered. My Moment of Knowing #3.
Was it time to stop? Could it be okay to stop? To slow down my mind to the available speed and power at which my body was functioning? Although my body had been driven to cease from activity, my mind was still trying to move at the optimum rate of a freight train. Not one which clearly knew it’s destination and how to get there, but still speeding at an anxious rate.
What is it that happens to us when we have to slow down? I know for me, it freaks me out thinking about all repercussions to the things which are not getting completed. If I fall behind will I be able to catch up, keep up, will I been seen as sub par, not as valuable? Why the anxiety? What is it that will happen to me? Will I implode? Will I physically collapse inward? My Moment of Knowing #4.
At various moments in life, this sense of urgency I have resided in, has kept me from accepting what needed to happen in the very moment in which I was residing. Can you say ironic? So much so that I missed valuable opportunities to learn and grow. The things I believed were the ways of “moving forward and getting ahead” were often lacking in connecting me to what was…is real in life. My Moment of Knowing #5.
Of course when you move as fast as we all do these days, it’s going to be hard to hit the pause button, especially when so much of what is learned about success and self worth is related to “quicker, faster, more, and now”.
Do you know what’s real in your life? Have you slowed down enough (or ever) to SEE & BE in the moments of your life? Do you know what’s best for you? Or have you been blindly following and jumping on the first passing train? Ever tried instead to stop and take that deep breath you’ve been ignoring?
Being still in your re-cognition to the gift of breath. You breathe in stillness, finally accepting the arrival of the right train. The one which has patiently waited for us to board. Ready to take us back to our center. Our force.
Allowing us to return to the world, with the true light of ourselves. My Moment of Knowing #6.
Even in those moment when we’re not on the same page, I can still SEE you. Your want, need, and affinity to be you. Play out your existence on this planet and be true to who you are. Authentic. In turn allowing me to do the same. Thank you and yes, with you, I’m grateful and completely happy. ~Clarity Girl
Clarity Girl has been doing some mindful studying and reflection. My fear vs. my truth. An epic battle for domination. The quest continues.
If it hasn’t happened already, at some point, you will be confronted with situations, in which feelings of anger, loss, sadness, fear, betrayal, etc., will come alive. My Moment of Knowing #1.
If you are familiar with what I refer to, then you will have also recognized after their initial birth, (as an added bonus), these emotions don’t just go away. You get to keep and carry them.
But how long and whether their purpose is recognized is determined by YOU. My Moment of Knowing #2.
Over the years when something or someone triggered these residual thoughts/feelings to resurface, the internal physical reaction was jarring enough for me to promptly push them away and make sure I locked them up. Why? My Moment of Knowing #3.
Looking back it seems as if I was on auto-pilot. I had trained myself so well that I unconsciously consciously busied myself and my mind to the point I couldn’t hear any of my own truth. Why? Well…
At times I spent way too much time thinking and worrying about what other people thought about me and therefore I have paid more than my share of extra fees carrying around baggage.
What would happen if I actually spoke up and shared my opinions, let out my insecurities, doubts, vulnerability? Was it wrong to do this? How would people SEE me? Would they think I should be “over it” by now? Too sensitive? Too emotional? Weak? Would I still be accepted and have a place in their world?
What changed my perspective? A moment of compassion. For myself and those I needed to forgive. Clarity in knowing my world and my purpose in it. My Moment of Knowing #4.
Getting back to what I started and risked it all for a long time ago…to live life with and in MY full expression. Not theirs. My Moment of Knowing #5.
Really? They had to connect that characteristic on the jellyfish? It’s just being what it is, doing what it was created to do, and comfortably confident that it knows it’s true purpose. How many humans can say that?
Some items you may not have known about our gelatinous marine friends.
1. There are approximately 1500 known types of jellyfish
2. Jellyfish have been on Earth longer than the dinosaurs
3. They have roamed the seas for 500 million years
4. A group of jellyfish are called a bloom or a smack
5. Some are translucent, others completely transparent
Recognize that you have chosen your purpose in being in this society at this time on your planet. Know that if you were not going to make a difference, you would not be here. As you begin to see the idea of the connection of everything in your society as it relates to you, and as you relate to it, you will begin to understand that each and every individual makes a difference within the society as a whole.